Hiding My Truth
A sinister energy somehow returns,
and it carries excitement and doubt.
It blossoms inside like an old parasite
and draws out my vulnerable thoughts.
This poisonous leech disguised as truth
tempts me toward sparkling journeys.
But I can’t give in and risk jail again,
so I hide behind logic and safety.
Now my insecure smiles and appropriate speech
protect me from dubious stares.
As God is my witness, I’m not really odd,
I’m just hiding my truth till the end.
(John Zurn has been faced with the challenges of bipolar disorder and anxiety disorder for his entire adult life. He gradually learned that: medication, exercise, meditation and creative writing were vital for his long term recovery. Despite this challenge, he still worked as a teacher and counselor for thirty-five years.)
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