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The optician probed the photos For the most extensive eternities lived Then, with a distressed look to terrify a leopard, The optician turned towards me and, with caution, said Is there a history of lifeless eyes in your family? My great-grandmother’s eyesight stopped living That is why, thus the optician declared decided death The optician thus declared my eyes’ demise that was coming. I superfluously sought simplification Your eyesight, I’m afraid to say, is on its deathbed Kite, it has gone into its death throes, unfortunately I contemplated the optician, to dispute putting eyesight on its deathbed And to show he should know more about eyesight’s end In the history of the eyesight that he had said lay dying And, exquisitely executing a nod, the optician said That I should tell more about that eyesight that stopped living. Her eyesight might have died in an accident… Kite I too have doubts, for they are too big, too big But the sheer elegance of their symmetry is a joy to behold I asked the seemingly spellbound optician what was too big If it is a cataract covering your eyes’ lenses, Kite it is creepy The optician thought, the optician looked at me, the optician said Kite, I am referring you to an ophthalmologist Looking at me thinking deeply, the old optician said. II The ophthalmologist performed eternal tests and eternal tests Then sentenced me to one year of terrible torture By condemning me to three hundred and sixty-six days of darkness I went back weighed down with the sentence of terrible torture The ophthalmologist tested eyes more painstakingly than previously Then, giving me not a small sign of hope even, said that He was sentencing me to a year of terrible torture as previously. He condemned me to three hundred and sixty-six days of total darkness Meanwhile I was steeling myself For destined death of eyesight That my great-grand mother had herself Passed on to me — though unlike her I did not have it right from the outset of life My great-uncle Heron, my only relative in life Who saw that august woman whose smile lit Hill Crest Hill Confirmed my fear that in total darkness came to life That in total darkness she lived it; and in total darkness left it I regretted receiving her royal genes And I ruminated one thousand and ninety-eight days On my being one in four populous generations To suffer my great-grandmother’s fate — to be so fated But if I was the chosen one in four populous generations? Oh how many a night! Oh how many a night! Oh how many a night! Oh how many a night I devoted! Just to savouring that sweet possibility! That to that august woman was I by blood not related! III To make those potentially good tidings I soared over seas and land to my homeland To make that potentially good news that I was the elect And as soon as the sun shut its eyes in my homeland With the result that the land was clad in delightful darkness I took a tin, a torch and a hoe in my hand And crept to the site of the home Of Kite great-grandfather — to the site of Kite’s home compound Where as a child one wet sunny morning When two white egrets were crossing the stream To the elephant grass atop Hill Crest Hill opposite I was driving the eight bulls pulling great-grandfather’s permanent plough When great-uncle Heron ploughing his millet field, his hands on the handles When great-uncle Heron said, Papa, steer the bulls off your grave! Not to plough! Great-uncle Heron said, with his shaven long chin pointing At a green grassland as large as a small compound Said great-uncle Heron, Kite Papa, for they named me after Kite their father Said Heron, making me feel like I was really his father, as I was turning the big bulls round Kite Papa, said Heron pointing, your wife too lies there in your house beside you. As I stood on my grave in that delightful darkness I lamented not having been curious about the grave of my wife In delightful darkness I asked where in that luxuriant grassland they buried me In delightful darkness asked I where they might have interred my wife Should I ask Heron to show me the exact spot her noble bones are? But if Heron does not understand my predicament? Might I not taint my burnished reputation, if he thought I had acquired arctic magic? If he thought that I had come back in possession of global witchcraft? No, I would not risk tarnishing my shinning reputation I decided to excavate all bones from the savanna I turned the torch on, getting a little slit in delightful darkness And I struck the hoe into the ground and its futility struck me And I recalled Gulliver saying something stealing seeds; statistics saying it was true And reporting patricians periodically stealing seeds from plebeians And DNA tests testifying that thirty per cent seeds were stolen If a woman saw fit to steal seeds for patrician Kite from plebeians? Nothing warranting DNA tests I the elect or not was not worth excavating savannas to know So soared I over the seas and lands back to await the eyesight tests. . . IV On the one thousandth and ninety-eighth day I drove to the hospital praying That I was blessed with bizarre but beautiful retinas I drove fast to the hospital praying That her kingly blood was not flowing in my body Despite Heron having proclaimed me her carbon copy Despite no doubt about her blood being in my body. On the one thousandth and ninety-eighth day I drove to the hospital speaking to God about my retinas Praying that I was not an unlucky seed theft Praying that it created bizarre but beautiful retinas And that I was not of patrician stock; that I was the elect Mixed feelings had tight grip as I tramped to the ophthalmologist’s office I was steeling myself for my great-grandmother’s fate transmitted to me I was stoical standing in front of the ophthalmologist’s office. I entered the ophthalmologist’s office praying that I was a lucky theft of plebeian genes That I the elect thirty per cent That in me pure plebeian genes The ophthalmologist started performing visual field testing And I was praying that I indeed was of patrician stock That the end of her eyesight was a birthing accident, would assert the testing That it was a birthing accident — that I was not the elect thirty per cent. . . And as never before tested the ophthalmologist my eyes I was praying that I was not the stolen thirty per cent. And the ophthalmologist pored over New photos, old photos, new charts, old charts, new tests, old tests And the ophthalmologist thought Thought profoundly — in silence contemplating tests His eureka moment came: Your eyes the best of nature’s works of art Never before seen such symmetry such beauty Never before seen in nature or in art Nature created your eyes a beauty to behold! Your eyes a beauty to behold! ( Samuel Abonyo is a Kenyan-born Norwegian sociologist and statistician. I attended the University of Nairobi and the University of Bergen, I am a senior advisor at Statistics Norway. I am working on a collection of poems, Conceited Curiosities and book-length poem The Man Who Killed Death.) My little caged bird
My little caged bird A box bedroom is your whole world Growing pale. Depressed and insular The trees the streets and the busy crowds repel you So you keep safe in Your cosy prison Schools don’t understand Your behaviour so different from all the other boys, you just want to belong But Autism is a lonely city to live in We saw your heart your soul your soaring talent Your spirit shone through in rare moments But life can get scary without a road map for sensitive kids like you One day you went away At last a special place that saw through your meltdowns sad eyes and obsessions This college by the sea Was specially for gifted teenagers just like you. No longer seen as problem at last you were nurtured and encouraged Now you are growing up a man You are thriving In every way A talented drummer in a band Playing gigs and writing your own songs This is the life for the coolest nephew I have known. Let life at him ! Cos his fulfilling life is now just beginning. Wendy : 23 / 07 / 2017 Everyday I run a Marathon Just like that, a seed is planted, within seconds it takes root, it entrenches. It traces the veins, and blood vessels in the body And beats a path to my trepidous heart This seed – it grows, and it’s out of shape. The icy tendrils are squeezing my skull now. Then it comes… the shallow breath.. in/out in/out My throat is narrow , the worries huge This is a daily task – just to get through this …. The front page of a newspaper, a throwaway comment, a memory from the day before Are all marching with set purpose, towards my psyche They are not giving up, this time I just might be right If I didn’t care… something terrible could occur I keep the world safe by ruminating I should be awarded by my services to humanity But instead – this constant battle – to keep the breath steady and the thoughts calm, no ripples on the water. I ground my feet into the earth I look out the window to the world below Anything to distract myself from the Army of myriad nightmares I imagine may happen… AT ANY MOMENT I look at you – and smile Yes, you think… everything’s OK – I just keep the mask truly fixed But everyday – you just don’t realise I run a marathon. Wendy : 14/08/2017 ( Wendy Gabriel has written poetry for 20 years, it is only in the last 3 years I’ve performed at Open Mic, I love to see people’s reactions at Open Mics, I’ve had rapt silence, laughter and tears.) Another day of feeling trapped
lost within my mind It buzzes with a constant fuzz And won’t let me unwind I try to sleep and melt away The torment held within But something’s got a hold of me That makes me live in sin It tells me “no you can’t do that” “You will not live so free” I tell it back “why keep me trapped” “What’s wrong with being me?” Eventually the time will come Where I will get to say “No longer is your hold on me” And you will go away Until that time I wander still Through life, I will break free No longer will anxiety Be a part of me. |
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