When they tell you you’ve
had a nervous breakdown
you become like an astronaut
you find yourself drifting,
pleading for someone to provide you
with the right equipment.
In the right space
you can deploy like the Eagle
confronting the “magnificent desolation” resolutely.
To be able to sink your feet into the
lunatic surface will be a revelation
tip-toeing through craters formed
long before you were born.
If you run low on fuel
at least you will have finally seen
what those wounds look like
up close and personal and like
the dark side of the moon
allow the parts unseen to be
tucked back into the envelope
of your universe.
every exploration takes time
Living in a Big Top
I was raised as a spectator. Taught to look with eyes wide open
and a mouth shut closed, a spectre haunting their escapades.
They came in droves in summer. A caravan of exotic animals.
Their foreign tongues licked at my ears and swallowed up my voice.
They pitched camp in every room, our house became a big top. Clowns with
their magic potions created smoke screens, intoxicating the crowd.
And my parents mastered the tightrope, walking between the tension points of
addiction and their children.
We were the objects that they juggled, like little balls kept in continuous
motion, for entertainment and display. Once the performance was over, we were tucked away.
Looking back, I can see, the format of these spectacles, the circle of that stage,
developed me into the ringmaster I am today. Away from the side lines,
at the centre of my life, I know how to interact with its various acts
creating a seamless performance.
I am no longer silent.
(TAK Erzinger is an American/Swiss poet and artist with a Colombian background. Her poetry and personal essays have been featured in Mojave He[art] Review, Cirrus Poetry Review, The Beautiful Space Journal, The Curlew, The Rising Phoenix Review, I-70 Review, The Avocet, The Woolf Magazine and more. Her debut poetry collection entitled, “Found: Between the Trees” (Grey Borders Books 2019) is currently available at http://www.greybordersbooks.jigsy.com/TAK-Erzinger. She lives in a Swiss valley with her husband and cats.)
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